Anyway, today was a relatively good day, methinks. I wasn't really able to talk to Mrs. Shak that much, though, because I was afraid of ending up staying there too long...so long that the Empress might get mad at me. xP Hahaha total jk. And...it was a good idea, I guess...I got to help Jacqueline with her Implied Metaphor (Bassoon:G-pa), remind Aneesh to do his, and check Levy's. Exciting, right? I know. I live an eventful life. xD Noo not really. =P I wiiiish...maybe. So...Spanish homework is actually making sense--probably because I'm actually reading the fuentes this time. I still don't think I will be ready for the AP exam. De ninguna manera!
Topic: Fasting--AIM, facebook, House (T___T), im-ing means, music (T___T), add a walk (where? how am I supposed to /add/ when I don't know what to take away time from! Hmm...), uhm. Oh! Solitaire...xD I ALWAYS play a game right before I go to sleep...and if I don't win in that game, I have a weird obsession with having to triumph at least once before I put myself to sleep. I should have that obsession with reading the Bible, instead...as in I HAVE TO finish this one passage before I sleep, or else I will be too anxious about it to sleep. I need that same drive to get into Scripture-reading. I think reading The Message // Remix Version that I got as a baptism gift from the church is somewhat helpful in my falling in love with His word. It reads really smoothly, so I guess it makes it more appealing? Argh, which implies that the Bible is not normally appealing to me. =( I really wish it were...but I kind of stopped at Genesis...12 or something? I don't even remember. >.> I honestly do want to love getting into God's word and love talking to God, but I seem to have trouble with the former, and the latter...I've been really reluctant to do so lately, for some reason. How can I call myself His follower, when I haven't been familiarizing myself with His guidelines OR Him?! Bad Dawning, bad! I must reset my priorities...and I DO NOT NEED AN EVENT to do this for me. I just need to commit myself to following Him daily, as Jesus asks us to do, in addition to taking up our cross and denying ourselves daily. I wonder what Jesus meant when He said "take up your cross"...does He mean like...deal with our pains and struggles? Hmm.
Music update: I just imported "The World As We Know It" and "...In Color", both albums Jacqueline allowed me to borrow. Not too bad stuff. Right now, though...I'm listening to Meditation from Thais. =P I played--err, as Twirly would say, "pulled that piece out of my butt" for a church performance last last Saturday. That was nervewracking yet intriguing at the same time, especially watching that little boy sing his heart out. Wow, he was a marvelous singer. ^^ Also, I seriously like "Passion feat. Usher's "Yeah" Remix" by Se7en a lot. I don't know...it gets me really pumped up! Yeeeah. So ready for a concert now. =PP Goodness, I'm beginning to sound like Jacqueline...apparently I said "STUPID!" today...and Chris Hohl was telling me how that was like Jacqueline's "stupid," according to the manner in which I uttered the exclamation.
Be still and know.......that He is God. Be still. So hard for us to really be still nowadays...we unconsciously constantly want to be up and about, busy doing something. If we are sitting there doing nothing, we get restless...and start mentally rebuking ourselves for wasting time. Hehee my family is funny. Today during Bible study, we were talking about Jimmy.... hehehehe
"As a dog returns to his vomit, so Jimmy drinks his pee." Okay yeah. It sounds gross here, and I hope no one who reads this will let Jimmy know that I revealed such confidential information to the world. I love my family. Thank you God for my family. I know I don't seem sincerely grateful for them, but I really am. ^^ Each and every member. I don't know how to really get closer to aya (grandpa), though. Hmm. Should I? Like...is there a point? He is already a believer and I love how when he speaks...just in daily language, he'll always be breathing "xie xie ye su," meaning "thank you, Jesus" in Shanghainese. It's really quite admirable that he does this...one might say that if you say one thing over and over again, it begins to lose its meaning. However, I say to these people (including myself), that there is an upside, too. You might have that phrase engraved into your mind, so that it is always permeating your thoughts. For example, a while ago I decided to try the repitition prayers for some reason...and I kept on saying "spread Your word, spread Your word, spread Your..." Now, this phrase sometimes just randomly enters my train of thought. or rather seemingly randomly? Hmm.
House update: Season 2 Episode 18
E-mail update: I need to reply to Larry's email. I think I will email a short thing, stating that I will thoroughly email him back after Snow Retreat.
College update: I need to finish the UCLA Scholarship Application. >.< Ew.
For some reason, every time I post an lj entry, I feel really accomplished/productive. I like that feeling. ^^